opin.menu.members.jpgopin.menu.forumfaq.jpgopin.menu.search.jpgopin.menu.home.jpgview our wiki

Go Back  The Tool Page: Opinion » Creativity » Poetry & Prose
User Name
Password
Reply
Old 05-04-2024, 11:04 AM   #41
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

@wisefool aka Rachel

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate
Desperate to control all and everything
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen
Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end
Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
Terrified of being wrong, ultimatum prison cell
Saturn ascends
Choose one or ten
Hang on or be humbled again
Humbled again
Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and grip 'em to the lonesome end
Saturn ascends, comes round again
Saturn ascends, the one, the ten
Ignorant to the damage done
Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate
Desperate to control all and everything
Unable to forgive these scarlet lettermen
Wear the grudge like a crown
Desperate to control
Unable to forgive and sinking deeper
Defining
Confining
And sinking deeper
Controlling
Defining
And we're sinking deeper
Saturn comes back around to show you everything
Let's you choose what you will and will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again
Spits you out like a child, light and innocent
Saturn comes back around
Lifts you up like a child
or drags you down like a stone
To consume you till you choose to let this go
Choose to let this go
Give away the stone
Let the oceans take and trans mutate this cold and fated anchor
Give away the stone
Let the waters kiss and trans mutate these leaden grudges into gold
Let go
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery

Last edited by lotus.; 05-04-2024 at 11:05 AM..
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 06-13-2024, 10:18 AM   #42
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

The future looks very dim at the moment. I’m sober and doing everything I’ve been told to do by DHS. The system has fucked me. I have no idea when I’ll be able to even have an overnight visit with my youngest daughter because it’s as if time has stopped on their end, while on my end it’s been 15 months without my kids. My wife won’t talk to me or let me see my oldest daughter. My wife wants a divorce and my don’t know what’s going on with her. I’ve lost everything including my purpose in life.

FML
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 06-13-2024, 10:19 AM   #43
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

FML
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 06-28-2024, 01:00 AM   #44
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

This journey is beyond wild. Beyond unpredictable. It’s chaos at every turn. I’m stuck in a hell of merry go round of forgiving and not forgiving. I don’t need any more people telling me how
Much I fucked up a year and half ago.

I try and help people and get fucked at every sunrise or sunset. I am an Alien who wants off this world. The only person who knew me, fucking hates me. You can have everything, I just our girls to have a good life.

Will I ever see Violet again??

Tell me if she’ll ever forgive me!!!!!

Blah
Blee
Just fuck me
#unforgiven
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 10-05-2024, 05:09 PM   #45
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

Day 532 of eradication of the ego

It’s been a rollercoaster to say the least. Trying to let go of the love of my life is t going to happen. I’ve dated and broken up with the past two people. Because the ultimate conclusion is that I will always love Rachel. But I have to get back to loving myself. Get back to changing. Shaking off all addictions. Letting go of this stupid fucking ego. I don’t want it! I just want to give! And give and give and give. I know my path. It’s right there, which is here. I am getting over Covid, this has been a death and birth in its own. I think I feel better today. I miss my daughters so much. I’d give anything to hold them both right now. I’ll wait for Rachel until the end of time. In the meantime, I’ve got to get back to the garden. Giving my time to only positive people and running away from narcissistic demons.

I love you!!!! ❤️💕
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 10-05-2024, 06:49 PM   #46
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

And I love you so!!
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote
Old 10-05-2024, 06:51 PM   #47
Up From The Skies
Suicide Booth ID: 13
 
lotus.'s Avatar
 
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: Rishi Maze
Posts: 13,220
Bincount™: 26323
Re: My Journey

I only post about half of the poetry that I write

Everything that I write is for Rachel

I’ll sprinkle my heart dust all over the universe for you to find
__________________
I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlights begin
It's all a mystery
OFFLINE |   Reply With Quote


Reply

Rate This Thread
You have already rated this thread
« Previous Thread | Next Thread »

Quick Reply
Your Reply:
Forum Jump

all posts © their respective authors. the tool page is not responsible for any of their thoughts, brilliant or otherwise.