staring, daring, proceeding with this plan
disciplined, the nature of your kind forgotten
oblivious, evolution of an ignorant past
problematic apathetic futures to come
do you still think of me?
your blasphemy and loss of productivity
what a waste......
you gave up your gifts for pleasure
i tried to confront your destructive nature...
you denied my privilege as your confidant
blocking my desire to obtain your trust,
what a lie......what a dissapointment...<sigh>
i drop my head thinking about what i thought you were
now realizing our facade and your guiltless shame
screaming,why wont you fade away, get out of my mind!!?!
please..... why do you even lie
i know who you are more than you ever will... my sweetest failure
my lovely disease
eventually you let me in
i found the poison molding your exterior
i sucked it from your bones and you cried
you couldn't accept that it changed you
made you into somthing else
somthing purtrid with plague
you faked a smiled to lead me on
i thought i had brought you back if only for a moment
i was blinded and wrong
awake in a sorrowful reflection..i pick my scabs from our battle
dreaming, delusionally distant
locked in my mind of possibilities forgotten
to think i thought could have saved you
but theres nothing to save in the source of pestilence
the origin of your sociopathic nature
but i continue to ponder if only you did change
but thats not a possibility i will ever confront
come back to yourself its been so long,
you whom i had given up on,time and time again
rest your head upon my pillow as i taste your potential
and come with me into retrospective oblivion, to finally shatter the space between
finding connection through our seperation
or we can split apart into infinity and find the end of time
if not in life then in death we shall be one
and then you will understand as will i
the space between is what binds us
