As I sit here trying to figure out
Who I am or what I've become
My mind can only drip like a candle
From sane to the insane I embrace
The fact that she will never understand
What she has done or didn't do
I'm drowning in a pool of tears
And wishing to an empty sky
That one day my mind be released
And I can wash away the empty walls
That I have closed myself in
I will not cover my eyes
For truth is not far from me
I cannot open the door
For fear of what I might leave behind
Maybe for one second
I can reach through this vision and collect
The few things that made me smile
If i could let go would I?
Like they say "only time can tell"
But I don't think I have the courage to ask
If only my perfections wouldn't haunt me
Maybe I'd find that piece of mind
And carry it home put it in a box
and bring it back out when everything
left me with nothing
Just to understand me myself
Is alone enough for me to walk away
and if I could just find a way
I probably let someone else take it
Fear is still inside me
Even when I thought there was nothing
Left to fear
