Hold-Me-Mommy
06-01-2003, 11:20 AM
Alright, this is a lyrical breakdown and "translation" of sorts to help understand what the song may be about. This is my favorite theory, however....maybe because I wrote it. :)
It took so long to remember just what happened.
I was so young and vestal then,
you know it hurt me,
>>It took a while to remember how it started
I was young and pure,
And this addiction/vice truly hurt me
but I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive
even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
>>I’m survived this vice all these years,
But I feel dead to the world.
I’ve got my hands bound,
My head down, my eyes closed
And my throat wide open.
>>I’m helpless against this vice
And extremely vulnerable.
Do unto others what has been done to you
>>Abuse others just as you have been abused
I’m treading water.
I need to sleep a while.
My lamb and martyr you look so precious.
>>I’m tired of fighting you (the vice)
I need you again.
You look good right about now.
Won’t you come a bit closer,
Close enough so I can smell you.
I need you to feel this.
I can’t stand to burn too long.
>>Come to me again,
Close enough so I can smell you.
I need you again.
I can’t stand being without you for too long.
Released in this sodomy.
For one sweet moment I am whole.
>>While I may be getting screwed in the long run, it still relieves me.
I will suffer for just this one brief moment of relief.
Do unto you now what has been done to me.
>>Enslave yourself just as I have been enslaved.
You’re breathing so I guess you’re still alive,
Even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
>>You’ve survived my addiction,
Even if my resources seem to be dwindling.
For I am your witness that
Blood and flesh can be trusted.
And only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind.
>>You can trust me and I can trust you.
Only you can give me piece of mind.
Got your hands bound, your head down,
Your eyes closed.
You look so precious now.
>>You need me just as I need you.
You look good right now.
Show me something
Thought I could make it end
Thought I could wash the stains away
Thought I could break the circle if I
Slipped right into your skin
So sweet was your surrender
We have become one
I have become my terror
And you my precious lamb and martyr.
>>Free me of my troubles
I thought you could help make them end
I thought you could wash them away
Thought I could end the vicious cycle if I
Gave into you
And giving myself to you felt good
We have become one
I have become what I most fear
And you will die for me
I have found some kind of temporary sanity
In this shit blood and cum on my hands.
>>This damage to my body yields a certain degree
Of clarity that I briefly understand.
I’ve come round full circle.
My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon.
You look so precious.
>>But the cycle continues
And I must have you again.
You look so good.
Final Thoughts:
The song is about abusing yourself with an addiction or other damaging vice. It destroys you, but it makes you feel good at the same time. This could be a drug, or some kind of compulsive action that only hurts you in the long run. You realize that you have a problem, but the cycle continues and still do the drug/activity that will ultimately destroy you.
It took so long to remember just what happened.
I was so young and vestal then,
you know it hurt me,
>>It took a while to remember how it started
I was young and pure,
And this addiction/vice truly hurt me
but I'm breathing so I guess I'm still alive
even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
>>I’m survived this vice all these years,
But I feel dead to the world.
I’ve got my hands bound,
My head down, my eyes closed
And my throat wide open.
>>I’m helpless against this vice
And extremely vulnerable.
Do unto others what has been done to you
>>Abuse others just as you have been abused
I’m treading water.
I need to sleep a while.
My lamb and martyr you look so precious.
>>I’m tired of fighting you (the vice)
I need you again.
You look good right about now.
Won’t you come a bit closer,
Close enough so I can smell you.
I need you to feel this.
I can’t stand to burn too long.
>>Come to me again,
Close enough so I can smell you.
I need you again.
I can’t stand being without you for too long.
Released in this sodomy.
For one sweet moment I am whole.
>>While I may be getting screwed in the long run, it still relieves me.
I will suffer for just this one brief moment of relief.
Do unto you now what has been done to me.
>>Enslave yourself just as I have been enslaved.
You’re breathing so I guess you’re still alive,
Even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
>>You’ve survived my addiction,
Even if my resources seem to be dwindling.
For I am your witness that
Blood and flesh can be trusted.
And only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind.
>>You can trust me and I can trust you.
Only you can give me piece of mind.
Got your hands bound, your head down,
Your eyes closed.
You look so precious now.
>>You need me just as I need you.
You look good right now.
Show me something
Thought I could make it end
Thought I could wash the stains away
Thought I could break the circle if I
Slipped right into your skin
So sweet was your surrender
We have become one
I have become my terror
And you my precious lamb and martyr.
>>Free me of my troubles
I thought you could help make them end
I thought you could wash them away
Thought I could end the vicious cycle if I
Gave into you
And giving myself to you felt good
We have become one
I have become what I most fear
And you will die for me
I have found some kind of temporary sanity
In this shit blood and cum on my hands.
>>This damage to my body yields a certain degree
Of clarity that I briefly understand.
I’ve come round full circle.
My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon.
You look so precious.
>>But the cycle continues
And I must have you again.
You look so good.
Final Thoughts:
The song is about abusing yourself with an addiction or other damaging vice. It destroys you, but it makes you feel good at the same time. This could be a drug, or some kind of compulsive action that only hurts you in the long run. You realize that you have a problem, but the cycle continues and still do the drug/activity that will ultimately destroy you.