ShackledEidolon
02-16-2003, 09:42 PM
Once again I've decided to post another bit of writing. This like the other Stream of Conscious posts was written during the middle of the night as I awoke from slumber. I haven't taken any time to restructure these or to look for any real meaning in them as of yet. I've left them just as they were when I initially wrote them. Please take some time to read it and if you have any comments, ideas as to what this could mean, thoughts on how it may apply to you or someone you know, or if your just interested in the way these came about then please post them.
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Self-Defeating
What is this I’m feeling?
I can feel it within with unfamiliar shape
The words spring forth yet none can describe
I can’t name and hence I can’t know
(Scream)
And I weep
For I am confined
I am fettered
This feeling scares me and I don’t know why
Look again and it’s stronger
Look away and it’s fonder
And viscera twists and churns looking for an escape
Moments away and the shape is sharper
Moments together and this pain is harder
But compassion yearns and burdens the other
To give up now is unthinkable
I can’t turn aside now but it’s unbearable
I see your smile yet your shadow wields a knife
Viciously sharp yet delicately glinting
Get away from me
You’ll bring me pain
Leave and I will do the same
This that I feel inside is not mine
I know that it was yours
So take it with you
But it doesn’t go-it lingers on
Deep inside I’m left cold and hollow
(Scream)
And I weep
For I am alone
I am alone
This feeling scares me and I don’t know why
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Self-Defeating
What is this I’m feeling?
I can feel it within with unfamiliar shape
The words spring forth yet none can describe
I can’t name and hence I can’t know
(Scream)
And I weep
For I am confined
I am fettered
This feeling scares me and I don’t know why
Look again and it’s stronger
Look away and it’s fonder
And viscera twists and churns looking for an escape
Moments away and the shape is sharper
Moments together and this pain is harder
But compassion yearns and burdens the other
To give up now is unthinkable
I can’t turn aside now but it’s unbearable
I see your smile yet your shadow wields a knife
Viciously sharp yet delicately glinting
Get away from me
You’ll bring me pain
Leave and I will do the same
This that I feel inside is not mine
I know that it was yours
So take it with you
But it doesn’t go-it lingers on
Deep inside I’m left cold and hollow
(Scream)
And I weep
For I am alone
I am alone
This feeling scares me and I don’t know why