seeker
02-04-2003, 01:59 AM
The Patient could be about life and waiting it out despite everything. I'll take it from the top:
"A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful."
The first line describes a new problem in the speaker's life, (problems have become tedium in many lives) and the fearful are those who care about him. They are worried for him, and they are startled from their own individual existences to see what will happen. They dread the possibilities.
"Is this a test?
It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on."
These lines describe the severity of the problem--the implications of its importance. If it isn't a test of will then it's simply too much to be worth the effort.
"Draining patience. drain vitality.
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire acts a little old."
Here the speaker more or less chooses to wait it out a bit to discern whether it is a test. It is draining his patience, in essence his willpower, and necessarily so it is his life (vitality) since he is already on the edge of forsaking it. The second line describes the world as he sees it--a paranoid, paralyzed vampire. It is acting old in that it's repeating itself, giving more problems for the speaker to deal with while giving little to support his efforts.
"But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here..."
This reinforces my assertions that he has chosen to wait it out. He's still here, the vampire that is the world is still getting a use out of him, and he's still hoping it is a test.
"I'm gonna wait it out"
Now he has decided to go with what he had already been doing just in analyzing the situation.
"If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
He's reminiscing on his history with dealing with problems, remembering the times he decided to keep going and the reasons that persuaded him. He has always had something to look forward to, support from the fearful mentioned in the beginning. His tedious path (his life) has been difficult, but he has chosen in the past to cling to what's good in spite of the evils of the world.
"I'm gonna wait it out"
The past is not the present however, and he's still enduring.
"If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
He's realizing his reason to continue, the value of it. In staying strong, he has the chance to aid others in living their lives in spite of the odds, even "the fearful". If he had no desire or care for the plight of others, he would have selfishly walked away... suicide.
"I still may. And I still may.
Be patient."
He's not ruling out the possibility of walking away... But for the present he seems to have overcome the initial problem ("I still may" has futuristic connotations). The second line here is perhaps a plea to those damaged and broken who may have been weakened by the speaker's loss of strength.
"I must keep reminding myself of this..."
He is reminding himself of all the reasons to be patient, because in the midst of the pain of life it is easy to focus on the negative. In encouraging himself to focus on the brighter side of things he is enabling himself to carry on.
"If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
Despite his outreach when he reasons with himself that he should stick around for the sakes of others, he still must have a source of strength. This describes his strength.
"And I still may. And I still may. And I still may."
He knows the fight is not finished. There will be more problems, more instances when he questions the value of going on. But he may, which is dealing with the future. He is ready to move on.
"I'm gonna wait it out.
I'm gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out."
...and that's a wrap. This is my struggle in times when I need to be patient and wait it out. Thanks for taking the time to read my interpretation.
"A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful."
The first line describes a new problem in the speaker's life, (problems have become tedium in many lives) and the fearful are those who care about him. They are worried for him, and they are startled from their own individual existences to see what will happen. They dread the possibilities.
"Is this a test?
It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on."
These lines describe the severity of the problem--the implications of its importance. If it isn't a test of will then it's simply too much to be worth the effort.
"Draining patience. drain vitality.
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire acts a little old."
Here the speaker more or less chooses to wait it out a bit to discern whether it is a test. It is draining his patience, in essence his willpower, and necessarily so it is his life (vitality) since he is already on the edge of forsaking it. The second line describes the world as he sees it--a paranoid, paralyzed vampire. It is acting old in that it's repeating itself, giving more problems for the speaker to deal with while giving little to support his efforts.
"But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here..."
This reinforces my assertions that he has chosen to wait it out. He's still here, the vampire that is the world is still getting a use out of him, and he's still hoping it is a test.
"I'm gonna wait it out"
Now he has decided to go with what he had already been doing just in analyzing the situation.
"If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
He's reminiscing on his history with dealing with problems, remembering the times he decided to keep going and the reasons that persuaded him. He has always had something to look forward to, support from the fearful mentioned in the beginning. His tedious path (his life) has been difficult, but he has chosen in the past to cling to what's good in spite of the evils of the world.
"I'm gonna wait it out"
The past is not the present however, and he's still enduring.
"If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
He's realizing his reason to continue, the value of it. In staying strong, he has the chance to aid others in living their lives in spite of the odds, even "the fearful". If he had no desire or care for the plight of others, he would have selfishly walked away... suicide.
"I still may. And I still may.
Be patient."
He's not ruling out the possibility of walking away... But for the present he seems to have overcome the initial problem ("I still may" has futuristic connotations). The second line here is perhaps a plea to those damaged and broken who may have been weakened by the speaker's loss of strength.
"I must keep reminding myself of this..."
He is reminding himself of all the reasons to be patient, because in the midst of the pain of life it is easy to focus on the negative. In encouraging himself to focus on the brighter side of things he is enabling himself to carry on.
"If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now."
Despite his outreach when he reasons with himself that he should stick around for the sakes of others, he still must have a source of strength. This describes his strength.
"And I still may. And I still may. And I still may."
He knows the fight is not finished. There will be more problems, more instances when he questions the value of going on. But he may, which is dealing with the future. He is ready to move on.
"I'm gonna wait it out.
I'm gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out."
...and that's a wrap. This is my struggle in times when I need to be patient and wait it out. Thanks for taking the time to read my interpretation.