endlesswater
10-29-2004, 12:19 PM
My interpretation of H.
Disclaimer.. yadda, yadda, yadda.. doesn't mean Maynard.. yadda yadda yadda..
Although buried in metaphor that could be taken to mean any number of things, for me this song also seems to be about relationship dynamics, as most of Maynard's songs are.
When I listen to H. I get the same feeling I get from Pushit. The same emotion is there, the same struggle.
I believe H. is about a damaging relationship, as is Pushit.
Maynard has said that H. is a song about choices, and that goes with what I feel about it too. It is about choosing to remain in a relationship that hurts you, uses you, abuses you.
The other side of the relationship may not mean to hurt you- 'They're both totally void of hate, But killing me just the same.'- but that doesn't change what is happening. In this case I think the damage caused to him is emotional.
'The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again. And I feel this coming over like a storm again. Considerately.
What has happened before in this relationship, the pain that he has taken already, warns him not to come back or go on in it. But inside he wants to.
Although I don't feel that this song is about drugs, it IS about addiction. Being addicted to somebody to the point where you don't care what they do to you as long as they love you. Because the feelings are that strong.
'Venomous voice, tempts me, Drains me, bleeds me, Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.' And so he gives in to the tempation and finds himself back where he was before, drained, cracked and empty. Used.
'I am too connected to you to Slip away, fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And considerately killing me.'
And yet it is where he needs to be, because he is connected to them so deeply. They touch him, change him, and they kill him with their love.
'Without the skin, Beneath the storm, Under these tears The walls came down.'
This is one of the most powerful parts in the song. Everything is stripped away, leaving him defenseless without his walls, his skin. The storm of emotion is on him again.
'And the snake is drowned and As I look in his eyes, My fear begins to fade Recalling all of those times.'
He is open and willing. His resistance is gone as he remembers all the times this has happened before.
'I could have cried then. I should have cried then.' He should have cried, because he isn't fighting it any more. And yet he knows what will happen.
'And as the walls come down and As I look in your eyes My fear begins to fade Recalling all of the times I have died and will die. It's all right. I don't mind.'
And then he realizes that it's all right. He knows what this is doing to him and what it will do to him, but it's all right.
He doesn't mind. He is willing to be killed considerately for them.
God, what a love song.
Disclaimer.. yadda, yadda, yadda.. doesn't mean Maynard.. yadda yadda yadda..
Although buried in metaphor that could be taken to mean any number of things, for me this song also seems to be about relationship dynamics, as most of Maynard's songs are.
When I listen to H. I get the same feeling I get from Pushit. The same emotion is there, the same struggle.
I believe H. is about a damaging relationship, as is Pushit.
Maynard has said that H. is a song about choices, and that goes with what I feel about it too. It is about choosing to remain in a relationship that hurts you, uses you, abuses you.
The other side of the relationship may not mean to hurt you- 'They're both totally void of hate, But killing me just the same.'- but that doesn't change what is happening. In this case I think the damage caused to him is emotional.
'The snake behind me hisses What my damage could have been. My blood before me begs me Open up my heart again. And I feel this coming over like a storm again. Considerately.
What has happened before in this relationship, the pain that he has taken already, warns him not to come back or go on in it. But inside he wants to.
Although I don't feel that this song is about drugs, it IS about addiction. Being addicted to somebody to the point where you don't care what they do to you as long as they love you. Because the feelings are that strong.
'Venomous voice, tempts me, Drains me, bleeds me, Leaves me cracked and empty. Drags me down like some sweet gravity.' And so he gives in to the tempation and finds himself back where he was before, drained, cracked and empty. Used.
'I am too connected to you to Slip away, fade away. Days away I still feel you Touching me, changing me, And considerately killing me.'
And yet it is where he needs to be, because he is connected to them so deeply. They touch him, change him, and they kill him with their love.
'Without the skin, Beneath the storm, Under these tears The walls came down.'
This is one of the most powerful parts in the song. Everything is stripped away, leaving him defenseless without his walls, his skin. The storm of emotion is on him again.
'And the snake is drowned and As I look in his eyes, My fear begins to fade Recalling all of those times.'
He is open and willing. His resistance is gone as he remembers all the times this has happened before.
'I could have cried then. I should have cried then.' He should have cried, because he isn't fighting it any more. And yet he knows what will happen.
'And as the walls come down and As I look in your eyes My fear begins to fade Recalling all of the times I have died and will die. It's all right. I don't mind.'
And then he realizes that it's all right. He knows what this is doing to him and what it will do to him, but it's all right.
He doesn't mind. He is willing to be killed considerately for them.
God, what a love song.