Jezebel
10-20-2003, 08:07 AM
Okay to explain why this song is so meanful to me I guess I have to get a little personal...not something I normally like to do on a site but what the hell. I have read that Maynard was abused as a child, some articles say physically and sexually. I would say by watching the Prison Sex video most of us would agree that something like that happened to him. Anyway if you know anything about living through that then you know how there is always this fear that you might become an offender instead of just a victim. To then have a child of your own is very frightening because you think maybe you can't trust yourself in that situation. In this light here is my interpretation
What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine
They're both totally void of hate
But killing me just the same
I agree that this is about the birth of his son. His son is the reflection of himself when he was young and innocent. The next two lines I think refer to two aspects of himself-one is telling him that this is going to hurt him and he won't be a good father. The other is saying that it's okay, he can make a good thing out of this even though his own childhood was painful. Neither one can really hurt him because the past is over with and he can do whatever he chooses now.
My blood before me begs me open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
Considerately
I too think "my blood" means Devo. Seeing his son might awaken feelings about his abuse he thought he had gotten over so he feels that coming over him in a storm of emotions. He could say "considerately" because even if it hurts to work through this it is the best thing that can happen to you.
Venomous voice
tempts me drains me bleeds me leaves me cracked and empty
drags me down like some sweet gravity
the snake behind me hisses what my damage could have been
His memories are still with him, influencing how he sees and responds to things. It is draining him. That last line I think refers to knowing that worse things could have happened to you. You lived through it so the "damage" is not as bad as it could have been.
I am too connected to you
slip away fade away
days away I still feel you
touching me changing me
and considerately killing me
Once again I agree with other posts that this is about how he still feels his son touching him when he is away touring because he loves him and they share a bond distance can't break.
Without the skin, beneath the storm
under these tears
the walls came down
and the snake is drowned
and as I look in his eyes
my fear begins to fade
recalling all of those times
I could have cried then
I should have cried then
I think this is saying that when he really digs into his memory he is able to release those pent up feelings and finally deal with them. The birth of his son has helped him get through all that shit from his past and he is freed by this experience. He should have cried more when he was a child and being abused but maybe he held it in and so now he can only do that as an adult.
The last thing I want to mention is
...all of the times I have died and will die
I don't mind
I think this is saying he knows that he will have to go through many things now that he is a father but he knows that it is worth it because nothing can give your life more meaning than to have a child
That was way too long. Just my thoughts, I could be off.
What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine
They're both totally void of hate
But killing me just the same
I agree that this is about the birth of his son. His son is the reflection of himself when he was young and innocent. The next two lines I think refer to two aspects of himself-one is telling him that this is going to hurt him and he won't be a good father. The other is saying that it's okay, he can make a good thing out of this even though his own childhood was painful. Neither one can really hurt him because the past is over with and he can do whatever he chooses now.
My blood before me begs me open up my heart again
And I feel this coming over like a storm again
Considerately
I too think "my blood" means Devo. Seeing his son might awaken feelings about his abuse he thought he had gotten over so he feels that coming over him in a storm of emotions. He could say "considerately" because even if it hurts to work through this it is the best thing that can happen to you.
Venomous voice
tempts me drains me bleeds me leaves me cracked and empty
drags me down like some sweet gravity
the snake behind me hisses what my damage could have been
His memories are still with him, influencing how he sees and responds to things. It is draining him. That last line I think refers to knowing that worse things could have happened to you. You lived through it so the "damage" is not as bad as it could have been.
I am too connected to you
slip away fade away
days away I still feel you
touching me changing me
and considerately killing me
Once again I agree with other posts that this is about how he still feels his son touching him when he is away touring because he loves him and they share a bond distance can't break.
Without the skin, beneath the storm
under these tears
the walls came down
and the snake is drowned
and as I look in his eyes
my fear begins to fade
recalling all of those times
I could have cried then
I should have cried then
I think this is saying that when he really digs into his memory he is able to release those pent up feelings and finally deal with them. The birth of his son has helped him get through all that shit from his past and he is freed by this experience. He should have cried more when he was a child and being abused but maybe he held it in and so now he can only do that as an adult.
The last thing I want to mention is
...all of the times I have died and will die
I don't mind
I think this is saying he knows that he will have to go through many things now that he is a father but he knows that it is worth it because nothing can give your life more meaning than to have a child
That was way too long. Just my thoughts, I could be off.